Instant Addiction
Friday, February 4th, 2011I met Princess Shimmy about 2 weeks ago. I have always been very submissive, but could never find a woman powerful enough to show me she was in charge. I was up one night and read about something called “Financial Domination.” The idea was very intriguing to me so I contacted the first Mistress that I found. She kept my interest for about 3 days and I was done. I almost gave up on the idea of meeting someone that could control me this way. That is when I ran across Princess Shimmy’s website. I opened her site and instantly I was drawn to her beauty I looked around and the more pics I saw, the more infatuated I became. I read her comments about how she wanted to control her slave’s lives and make them worship her. It turned me on like I had never been before. I had to contact her to at least see what she was like.
While I was waiting for a response, I took a look at her blog. I only wanted to read the first page to see what it was all about. By the time I was done, I had went back and read every blog post that my Princess had written. After seeing the pics of this beautiful woman and her amazing body, then reading her blogs, I have to admit I was very excited, but still very skeptical.
Then her email came. I was so excited that the woman from the site and blog was actually sending me an email. She gave me the basics of what she wanted. The rest of the day I found myself going back to her site. I couldn’t stop reading her blogs and becoming so excited by the things she has done to other subs. I was up so late, that I called out of work the next day because I wouldn’t be able to look at her site from work.
I couldn’t believe this was happening to me. I thought that I was so strong and tough.
I ran into her auctions and suddenly I found myself bidding on every single one. I wanted anything that I could of hers. I bid on boots, slippers and worn panties. I got turned on by the thought of that money being in her pocket because of me. I could feel myself literally becoming addicted to her. I would find myself trying to talk myself out of it. I would tell myself I didn’t need this and was done. I kept believing that, but every time my Princess would grace me with her attention, I could not resist and was right back to serving her. I have now accepted the fact that I am an owned bitch. I can not tell her no and honestly… I don’t want to. I love spoiling Princess and look forward to having her control my life and money as long as she will allow me.
I have done nothing but obsess about my Princess. I am addicted to her like a drug. I spend all of my waking hours thinking about her and how I can please her. I now have my phone signed in all time, just in case she gets on and needs me. I want to be there any time she needs me to obey. Last weekend, I made the stupid mistake of going to the grocery store and spending money on myself to eat good food. Once my Princess found out, she put me on a very strict diet of Ramen noodles and macaroni and cheese. I told that I was very wrong to spend money on myself and knew she was right. This week I did my grocery shopping; I obeyed my Princess and bought only what she told me to. Instead of my total for 2 weeks coming to $150-$200, the total was $36.84. I was so happy that I saved so much money to give to my Princess.
The last week I have been obeying my diet. I eat a banana for breakfast, a Ramon noodle for lunch and one or two noodles at night. When I am very hungry, I will treat myself to some macaroni and cheese as well. It is strict, but she owns me and I appreciate her letting me have any food at all.
Last night, my Princess may have taken this to a new level. She told me that she wants me to save $20.00 per week of my money to buy myself a chastity lock. I have been begging my Princess the whole time for her to take more control and humiliate me like she has others in her blogs. Even though I begged, she had always told me no until this point. She told me I had to earn the humiliation. When she told me that she wanted this, I couldn’t say no. Within a few minutes, she actually had me begging her to do this to me. I read what she has done to other subs with chastity and I still begged for it. I cannot wait to lock my little dick in the device and Princess owns the key.
I do not know when I will be getting out of the device. It may be months or years. I just know I want her to own me like this.
Thank You so much Princess for the chance to be your slave. My life has never had so much meaning.